How did I wake up and welcome my 32nd birthday?!! The year is passing by fast and I am aging gracefully….. Can I be just a little transparent with y’all? Every year around my birthday I go through a bit of an internal crisis where I’m going through oh my goodness I’m going to be such and such what have I done with my life?! This year was no different. On September 22nd I sat at my dining room table and cried my eyes out and my husband just listened as I cried about how I felt like a piece of me was lost in the tasks of what I do for everyone else and I no longer recognize myself and I haven’t accomplished much!!! My husband just let me cry and it was full out breakdown, I mean the kind of cry that leads to hyperventilation. He didn’t say much except “I am sorry” coupled with hugging. Last night, at youth He spoke to the youth but it was as if he was finishing our conversation. What I heard was “Tristin, remember Jesus has to completely satisfy you because nothing else in this life will.” He talked about when “Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.” John 6:35 ESV
My breakdown on Tuesday was really about not being satisfied- that was the issue. Every year I make a goal and it doesn’t really change- it just gets a little more intentional. This year I want to be satisfied in Christ alone. I believe in Him and He is Lord of my life so I want to take in the promise I will not be hungry neither will I thirst again! I want to be CONTENT in whatever season I am- right now that is found in throws of motherhood and being a support to my husband while being intentional with others (this will never change- I will always be wife and mother). In whatever season may Jesus be my bread!!! Hello 32 it is so NICE to meet you! #thisis32
Hey everyone I decided to document the crazy highlights of parenting with a segment I will call STORIES I CAN’T MAKE UP chronicles!!! As many of you know, I have a handsome almost 2 yr old who is the biggest blessing to my husband and I. He is the cutest little boy you’ll ever meet with a lot personality. When I look at my son, I see a good mixture of his dad and I in him. He’s super adventurous and you won’t ever be bored when interacting with him. To summarize, I ALWAYS HAVE A STORY!
On Thursday, my son went to spend the night with his honey (my mom). While he was there my sister put him on the potty because he had been talking about the potty with her. I didn’t mind because we’ve been introducing him to the potty gradually since he can tells us when he done something in his diaper.
Fast forward to yesterday, we’re at one of his good friends’ birthday party and we’re having A GREAT TIME. I checked on him as he was playing and he was having fun with his little friends. I decided to grab something to drink and I’m talking to one of my friends when I here my other friend say TRISTIN Your son! Immediately I knew my son was in the bathroom! My inquisitive daring adventurous little boy had ventured to the bathroom and got into the toilet. He literally lifted up the toilet seat and put one leg in the toilet….
While we all shared laughter over this situation, I couldn’t help but think how these little moments when my son is doing yet another thing to remind me that YES he is indeed MY SON, that they are fleeting moments. In just 16 days my baby will be two years old. I remember carrying him! I remember how tiny he was when he came home from the hospital. I remember his first steps, his first words. I remember the day he recognized the color blue and the letter A. This incident help me to remember to cherish these moments because he’s growing fast. I also realized just how valuable these early years are for my husband and I and most importantly the little boy that God has blessed us the opportunity in raising. My only hope is that we won’t squander the moments to invest in our family.
Here’s a little snapshot of my world. A God fearing wife and mom trying to get it right one moment at a time, all while sharing stories I CAN’T MAKE UP!
As the Christmas season draws near, here’s something to look forward!!!! The very reason we celebrate Christmas. Get ready to explore the very essence of Christ. This bible reading plan comes with a scripture writing challenge as well!!!!
Three years ago, my husband and I had been engaged for four months and we didn’t have much. I can remember combing over our budget for our wedding and thinking about what we can cut and what we didn’t need. I remember being STRESSED out. I also remember being at work super early and sitting down to read my Bible. That day I read about Jesus feeding the 5000. The passage of scripture was Matthew 14: 13-21. I had read that passage so many times before but on that day that passage became practical for me. I messaged my then fiancé and told him we might not have much but we’re going to give the Lord our fish and bread watch him do the rest.
Giving the Lord our fish and bread became our motto while we were engaged and the Lord provided in ways I couldn’t even begin to imagine.
Fast forward to three years later and we’re still giving the Lord our fish and bread and He is still giving us just what we need. We still don’t have much but we have an abundance of what we need in Jesus. As I sit with my 17 month old, I can’t help but praise the Lord for being faithful to my family and providing our every need. I praise the Lord that I can rest in knowing that all we need and could ever want is in him.
Will you give your everything to the Lord and trust him to provide for you?
at 4:45am my son was up and alert! I couldn’t help but capture this moment while trying to get him to go back to bed.
To my mom!!!!! I think this image below sums up what you’ve been to me! You see for 6 1/2 months you carried me (preemie baby) and for the other 2 1/2 months you never left my side while the drs took care of me. And as far as nurturing me you still play a part in that. You cuddled with me for fun when I was younger. As a teenager those cuddles turned into massive hugging sessions when i needed to vent and cry. Now those cuddles consist of me popping over to the house sitting on the edge of your bed and watching tv with you and just laughing. Watching all the sacrifices you’ve made over the years has shown me your strength! At almost 30 years old you still INSPIRE me. You’ve shown me that no matter the mistakes I’ve made, the disappointments and high moments that your love for me is unconditional and I know that God could only have given you that ability. You are my BEST FRIEND and I love you! Happy Mother’s Day! To my baby boy, I carried you for 39 weeks and 4 days anxiously waiting for the moment to physically kiss on you. From the moment I found out that I was pregnant with you I knew my life would change for the better. There’s this happiness I feel when I think about being your mom because I know that I have this huge responsibility before me. You see your daddy will teach how to be a man in ways that I cannot but I get to nurture you and guide in ways that he can’t and together with the Lord’s help we will be this dynamic duo for you and your future siblings. The cuddles and the kisses will never stop. The comfort you need will always be right here. I promise to keep guiding you, loving you and to keep being mommy. Those moments when I’m lacking, feeling inadequate, or I just MESS up because I will, I promise to look to Jesus to give me the supernatural strength to keep being MOM. I promise to be diligent so that when you’re almost 30 you can say mom you inspired me. I know that daddy will be your second best friend (praying that Jesus is your first best friend) so I’m okay with being 3rd. Back to my mom I want you to understand that at almost 30 your job as mom still isn’t finished because all that you’ve poured into me I use with my baby. To all my mommy friends our job is a continuous one with little immediate feelings of affirmations. We don’t hear you’re the BEST everyday nor do we get a pay check for the job we do, but it’s the MOST important job we will ever have. I have had so many surrogate moms and examples to pull from so thank you and Happy Mother’s Day to all of you!
I love capturing milestones!!! KenMic feeding himself. I live for these moments. The special moments where God shows me I’m doing the right thing. Everyday the Lord shows me that’s its my job to nurture and love on this little guy. So my days will be filled with things that he enjoys most and the things he needs! So I’ll enjoy Circle time and Storyville. I’ll enjoy dump trucks and mountain climbing. I’ll enjoy the endless nap times and messy diapers. I’ll enjoy the meltdowns and the privilege of instructing him in the way of the Lord. It’s been a complete joy being this little guy’s mom.
And you have been filled by him, who is the head over every ruler and authority.”
As I ponder this verse today, I had to go back a couple of verses to understand what is going on in this verse. There is a lot going on too!!!! Paul the author of this letter to the church in Laodicea is writing to refute some things because there is a lot of bad teaching going on. Gnosticism- the idea “a great mass of elaborate knowledge was necessary for salvation” – was prevalent and Paul wanted to encourage believers that the fullness of God was entirely in Christ and that He has complete authority over all. In this verse, I find that word “filled” translates to the word “complete”. In fact other translations use the word “complete”. In the verses that come before Colossians 2:10, Paul is basically saying hey forget about all the knowledge and worldly wisdom that others are giving you. Remember that the fullness of God is in Christ- this verse- and you are MADE complete in Christ and He is the Boss!
What I love most about Scripture is that it is God breathed and inspired by Him. He used men to write His words!!! So just like the Church in Colossae had something to learn back then, I have something to learn from this verse too. Truth bomb for you all- just like the believers in Laodicea- I struggle immensely with letting the wisdom of the world affect how I make decisions. It affects the kind of wife I am to my husband and the kind of mother I am to my son. I find myself trying to step outside of my priorities as wife and mom do other things and RIGHT now my priority is to my family. This verse encourages me to remember nothing else completes me but Christ. He is my boss- the Lord of my life. I fail every time without him ruling over every aspect of my life. The question that has to echo throughout the day is “Tristin, who’s the boss? Is it You? Is it (fill in the blank) or is it Christ himself? I want the answer to be Christ at any given moment.