Hello 32 it’s nice to meet you!

How did I wake up and welcome my 32nd birthday?!! The year is passing by fast and I am aging gracefully….. Can I be just a little transparent with y’all? Every year around my birthday I go through a bit of an internal crisis where I’m going through oh my goodness I’m going to be such and such what have I done with my life?! This year was no different. On September 22nd I sat at my dining room table and cried my eyes out and my husband just listened as I cried about how I felt like a piece of me was lost in the tasks of what I do for everyone else and I no longer recognize myself and I haven’t accomplished much!!! My husband just let me cry and it was full out breakdown, I mean the kind of cry that leads to hyperventilation. He didn’t say much except “I am sorry” coupled with hugging. Last night, at youth He spoke to the youth but it was as if he was finishing our conversation. What I heard was “Tristin, remember Jesus has to completely satisfy you because nothing else in this life will.” He talked about when “Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst.” John 6:35 ESV
My breakdown on Tuesday was really about not being satisfied- that was the issue. Every year I make a goal and it doesn’t really change- it just gets a little more intentional. This year I want to be satisfied in Christ alone. I believe in Him and He is Lord of my life so I want to take in the promise I will not be hungry neither will I thirst again! I want to be CONTENT in whatever season I am- right now that is found in throws of motherhood and being a support to my husband while being intentional with others (this will never change- I will always be wife and mother). In whatever season may Jesus be my bread!!! Hello 32 it is so NICE to meet you! #thisis32